I had a teammate (now a CAT1) and every time he sees me he has a smile on his face. Its not just a smile, but a “look at you, you slow CAT3″ smile. Its a condescending smile. On top of that it always comes with some stupid remark… like “how’s the weather Jan… you upgraded?”

Now mind you, I can just go ahead and handle this guy like a feather but I would never do that.

What I really want to do is tell him to go efe himself and drop some bomb in front of a bunch of his teammates and friends OR just straight up ask him what is going on, if he has a problem with me.

I might just do that. Next race I see him and I get that stupid smirk I will confront him. Lets see what happens. Really pisses me off, but I know its just cycling and out of cycling he is a bum.

Oh wel, thats that for venting….

Not sure what happened, but I was dying. I was feeling like my heart was going to come out of my mouth and my ears were hurting so badly from the pounding (heart). I felt like I was at the verge of an asthma attack, my heart rate was well into the 190′ and I could never recover. For everyone else it looked like an easy race, for me it was terrible. What a waste of an afternoon… oh well..

SO after that I started to think seriously about this racing thing. I am just not cu out for this shit. Its too hard/dangerous/time consuming.I might end the suffering ASAP and just ride until I am OK to race again… next couple weeks will be crucial. If I get shelled at Ontario, thats it.. I will quit for a good long time… I promise.

So a couple of things I noticed. The Dana Point TT. What a fucking rip-off. $25 for a 2.5 mile TT. That is almost as expensive as my Red Trolley stint… 10 dollars a mile! 10 bucks a lap!!! I don’t know man, but I doubt they will fill that event up.. AND because of that shit, The Cyclo vets omnium will not have a Pro/1/2 and 3 event….. WTF? There is just no way in hell I am going to Dana again. I know, call me what you want, I am not going down on that stupid course.. actually, the course might be fine, just people can’t handle it.

On a final note, I am super happy I did not go to VOS. Its useless if you dont have a good TT in your legs and if you are lucky, you wont crash or get crashed out in the crit. Just really happy I opted to stay home. Dont know whats next, but the calendar looks slim and the fitness wont cut for the bigger events…. 2010 cycling year is almost over for me already. Oh well…. back to rowing.

Boulevard will hurt. Thats all I can say. It will hurt the legs, the heart and the ego. Not looking forward on spending and afternoon putzing around in the snow. Hopefully conditions are worse than last year and people just quit after a lap… that way I keep going.

VOS is looking bad right now too. I need to go back and do somewhat well but I am scared of the Ritte guys…. joking. My TT is not that great. I think I could pull something off because it would be a constant effort, but in the RR and CR I would get dropped with the jumps. Still have 2 weeks though.

one last thing on the whole distorted society thing. P-diddy gave his 16 year old kid a new Maybach. 360000 dollar car… what a put…

Looking down at the barrel of the gun… i mean Boulevard RR. Right now not sure if racing is what I want to do. The motivation is gone and so is the time to train.

Pondering if the option to mix it up with my fellow idiot CAT-3 racers is really worth it at this point in my life. BTW, when I talk (write like that) I don;t mean to offend people… its like Eminem calling his hommies fa**. You know, its a nice way to refer to the other guys.

Anyways, I have been skipping training but making it up as I can. Maybe it will be another ride-into-shape season. I was really trying to avoid it as I had aspirations of doing well at the early races, which is where most of the upgrade points are (stage races).

The weather is not helping either. Not an excuse, but yesterday, for example, I had a flat and a buddy of mine did also. He blew a hole in his tire and had to call is wife 6:10 in the morning… I flatted 20 minutes later and it took some time to fix it because of all the shit on the road (water, grime, dirt, etc, etc). Maybe I am getting to soft… actually, I always was, just getting softer. Speaking of soft, i still need to loose more weight. What else is new?

I will continue to ride and these two coming weekends I should be able to put in a lot of hours. Lets see if that jump-starts my metalobism. So sick and tired of getting dropped by Horner.

Well, today it will be on Swamis and after some time off I am prepared to get dropped really hard. Not expecting much out of the next couple weeks, which essentially puts me into the racing season.

I have given this some thought and this might be the last year I race this much. Or at least I will take a break so to make it count I will try to race a bit better and smarter. Not sure how that is going to happen, but I will try.

A lot of things are happening and riding the bike is killing some of my productive time. I am not putting it down completely, I might just go back to rowing for some time or if I really wanted to be a douche I would go do triathlons…. joking.

So many things to write down, but its time to get out there ad just start doing it.

Wish everyone a safe 2010 season, because that is all that matters. Have fun and suffer on the bike.

Lets see how the season rolls….

I had some time to go out and ride the mountain bike, but not much. Did some TT type efforts on some of the climbs around my house.

I am a bit worried…30 days from Valley of the Sun and its not looking too good. If anything I am resting quite a bit and I will be able to have 2 really hard weeks before that race but I doubt that will be enough…. right now I am leaning towards staying home. Oh well.

Other than the rain I am working a little bit and enjoying some local food, which for me means I will not loose any weight this year while in Brasil…. I am watching my weight and till now, only a couple of pounds…

Maybe its time to commit. So hard to do with all this good stuff laying around.

Tomorrow hopefully I will have a small window to burn some of that food off.

And one more last thing before I go… I tested positive for CHOCOLATE but I am not sure how it happened…. dang Zirbel, what a stoooopid excuse

Tuesday AM on our flat ride I felt a little bit of the sting, but on wednesday I completely blew up. Within the first 5 minutes of hard riding my legs reached failure, they would just not turn. Right there and then I decided to turn around and go home, the ride was not going to do me any good.

So I head back to work, actually, and get to my car that I had parked on Regents. Get everything out of the car to put my bike inside and then managed to pack everything back in EXCEPT my laptop. I left to thing on the roof of the car.

I drove away gingerly and got to work… about 0.5 mile down the road. Get out of the car and remember that I was missing my computer. I dont think I have broken this many laws since I have started driving. Ran all kinds of red lights to get back to the parking lot, but it was in vain. The computer was gone and any hope of recovery went out the door.

This thing was 2 weeks old as we got broken into and they had stolen my last one… thieves broke into the office and took JUST my MacBook Pro, just that… Anyways, now I am heading back to work and thinking how I am going to explain this shit. It was just stupidity.

Apple store opened across the way and I went to get a replacement. Started to run time machine and as i was almost getting done with it I get an email. Guy had found the computer and it was working fine.

Turns out to be that I knew the guy. He was a cyclist that was getting ready for a ride and found the computer in the middle of the road, just sitting there. His name is Nick Turner and most of you guys might know him. SDBC elite team guy. I was so lucky…

But anyways, back to the cycling. Feeling flat, blah, blah, blah. This week I am going to go swamis long. 140 miles. Its my last big ride before heading to Brasil on vacation.

I’ll ride there a little bit. I lose a ton of weight when I am there, so looking forward to that.

I had an affair with Tiger Woods. I am the first man to confess this. After all the girls came out I have no option than to cleanse my soul from this man…

I am press-releasing that I will demand monetary compensation for my pain and suffering and if he refuses I will go to the media… other media, bigger media… you know TV and shit.

Alright all jokes aside, what is going on with this guy. Funny to see a famous sex addict acting out on it. Gosh, It must be very hard to be Tiger right now… Oprah, millions of golfers ashamed of their idol, sponsorship shuffling… a nightmare… It would be the equivalent of Lance getting busted for doping.

This off season I got a huge batch of Specialized inner tubes.

The last month I’ve used about 20 of them. More than half of them were flats where I could not find shit in the tire and all I can assume is that these tubes were defective.

Between the group that I ride with and some other people I have asked, it has been decided that these are indeed the shit tubes. The MAJORITY have been defective, no way to deny this.

So fucking pissed off that every time I get back from a ride (100 or 20 miles) I am getting a flat and it only shows up the next day. We are all running on half pressure tires because the tubes are constantly failing.

I noticed that it has been happening very close to the stem and on the inner side of the tube… most little tiny holes are about 304 inches from the valve.

Im done with these stupid tubes.